How does it happen this way? When you hear someone say, and even though you try to convince yourself…it just doesn’t feel like it would ever be so. When you’re told it’ll pass, that it’s temporary. At the time, I just couldn’t believe it. No matter how many people told me. No matter how many times I tried to convince myself. Deep down, I didn’t believe it. But now here mere months later, the wounds in my body, mind, and soul have begun to heal. I don’t feel…glitchy anymore. Is this real? Have I really overcome it? I don’t look back. I have to leave it behind me, I tell myself. Take what I learnt from it and never forget. Finish off with the medication and continue on therapy but focus on forward. I’m here. And I’m no longer just clinging on. I’m on a solid platform, and before me I can now see what I thought I’d never again…infinite possibilities.
I’m home. Back in this familiar place. The last few weeks flew by. They were as fleeting as a dream. It was a mesmerizing venture out of the 852 that I desperately needed. I have returned feeling rejuvenated and blessed. To update, I spent the last few weeks in the paradise that is Indonesia, in Yogyakarta and in Bali. Two very different trips of their own; they might as well have been in two separate countries. It sure felt so. And I mean that in the best way possible. Indonesia just has so much to offer. Bali, by far, was my favorite. I did much in Yogya, from visiting the stunning temples of Borobudur and Prambanan, to eating on floating restaurants where you could go fishing, jeeping around Asia’s most active volcano – Merapi, to getting to live the rural life in a Muslim village in Klaten. It has been wonderfully enriching and eye-opening. But Bali…the energy there was just so soothing. Although I still had many moments where I struggled with my mind and its fears…to be surrounded in an area of yogis (we stayed in Cenggu), do yoga each day, eat ridiculously delicious nutritious food, lounge by the beauty of the beaches, and befriend many of its locals had its own way of enlivening me. It has lightened the load that is my past and has made me feel less heavy. It is definitely a place I would like to return to. Hmmm…I’m smiling to myself as I remember the bliss. But I must cut this abruptly as I’m due to attend mass at church. Back here at home, I need to continue to ensure I nourish the soul. Till next time x