I’m not feeling so great today. I’ve allowed the stress and exhaustion to mount up and haven’t been dealing with it in a healthy way. I could be exercising, journaling, meditating, but instead I’m giving in to being irritable, snapping at a loved one who didn’t deserve it, venting out frustrations through lust, etc. And so I don’t feel as close to God today, not right now at least and that’s my own doing for sin distances us and I know this. I’m aware of it, but I still do it. I watch myself consciously do what I know I shouldn’t. Why? Why is this self-destructive pattern in me? Please God, help me to curb this so I can behave in a way that pleases you and not the other way around. I need your guidance, for I am often lost and frustrated. Impatient and therefore do not properly think decisions through. Lord, I ask that you guide me through your will today and the next days. Thanks be to you, O Lord. Amen.